The New Big Thing

Hi friends, I will be having a big surgery today at the Mayo clinic.  We have faith that this will mark the end of spontaneous infections; in addition to the surgery, I will be starting on medications that are often successful in controlling Crohn's disease.  Why another surgery? (Why another infection?) -- nobody really knows.  Maybe the whole problem was not taken care of last fall, maybe I should have started these medications earlier, maybe I didn't wait long enough between my surgeries in October and December to heal completely.  "Maybe" or "Possibly" are words you learn to live with.  Despite all the uncertainty as to causes and whys, I feel (more honestly than I have in a long time) that today is a positive step toward SUSTAINED health.  I can anticipate one more surgery in 6-12 months, but expect good health in the interim and beyond.  Thanks to all who bother to read and wish me well.  The support of friends has been wonderful and integral to getting through this experience.  I think I tend to sound a bit morbid -- and hey, I'm no little miss sunshine -- BUT, I am really excited about the possibility of riding bikes, hiking, taking photographs, and even just working in the near future WITHOUT PAIN and without the nagging feeling that it's about to all fall apart.  Life is hard and rarely gives you all you want, but if I can find a way to do the things I love, and to be with the people I love, in a stable and sustained way, I should be incredibly grateful. With Love - Mary